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How Skinny?

22 Aug

I have yet to find someone else on this planet as underweight as myself without their being either physically ill (i.e., wasting diseases) or mentally ill (e.g., anorexia nervosa). Believe me, I’ve looked everywhere. I’ve read the underweight message boards, where each person’s story generally comes with a description of the extent of the problem in terms of height and weight. I’ve observed the world populace as I move about in it. Heck, I’ve even scoured European fashion magazines — the haute coutre sections are definitely the closest I’ve ever come…but I still easily out-skinny even the thinnest French and Italian models. (I attempted to become a model myself as a young woman, but alas! Contrary to popular opinion, you can be too thin, even for the fashion world.)

“So,” you are probably wondering. “How skinny are you?”

Let’s start with the numbers. I am 5’9″ (175 cm) tall. With some brief exceptions, I have weighed close to 93 pounds (42 kg) since I was 16 years old. Although not the most accurate, the body mass index (BMI) provides a measure that allows for the comparison of individuals of different heights in terms of their weight. “Normal” BMI ranges from 18.5 to 25. According to the World Health Organization, a woman with a body mass index (BMI) of 18.5 or less is “underweight,” and anything under 16 is classified as “severely underweight.” My BMI is less than 14. Even with consideration for having a small frame I am underweight by close to 40 pounds!

That’s how skinny I am.

If you’ve known me since childhood, this comes as absolutely no surprise. As a kid, my brother had several nicknames for me, including “Olive Oyl,” “Ethiopian,” and (my least favorite) “Wormy.” I heard every skinny joke in the book by the age of 8. Growing up in East Texas, where most girls are described as “healthy” and “corn fed” (innocuous phrases for overweight), I became extremely self-conscious of my gangling arms and legs at an early age. By the time I was in high school I had learned to refrain from wearing shorts for fear of comments about my “chicken legs” and rarely wore short sleeves for similar reasons. This was lots of no fun in 100+ degree Fahrenheit Texas summers.

Caution: Sharp Knees Ahead

Fast forward 15 years. I am now 31 years old and still struggling to stay above 90 pounds. I have spent my life searching for pants that don’t fall off (even the smallest slacks frequently drop straight to the floor when I attempt to try them on), blouses that don’t accentuate my elbows, and dress shoes with a AAAA width heel (let’s not mention the frustration of lingerie…aaargh!). Speaking of heels — at various points in my life, both my heels and rump have appeared permanently bruised from the necessities of walking and sitting without any protective padding at all. I also watch as my parents endure the effects of underweight as they age. Much more than most people, I must be hyper-vigilant of the associated complications of aging and frailty such as osteoporosis and loss of muscle mass.

Some of these things I have learned to accept and to live with, but others I refuse to. And so I intend to divulge here what I have learned so far about my body, as well as to continue my quest for optimal health by delving into personal genomics, scouring the scientific literature of metabolism, and contriving to cobble together a personalized fitness and nutrition regimen that supports my goal of gaining healthy weight, improving cardiovascular function, and improving my chances of living a long and fruitful life.

I’m excited about what we’ll learn along the way!

Born Skinny

10 Jul

Welcome to The Skinny. The Skinny is a blog primarily dedicated to “life as an extreme ectomorph.” That is, most entries will relate in some way to the particular circumstances of that extremely small subpopulation of people who are of very thin body build. The point is not to aggrandize this condition, but to promote the reality of the situation, which is that some people truly are, quite naturally, extremely skinny.

The extreme ectomorph was a thin child, a thin adolescent, and, without serious intervention, will remain a thin adult. The extreme ectomorph has as much, if not more, difficulty putting on weight as any heavy person has losing weight. The extreme ectomorph almost always has serious body image issues.

Most importantly, the extreme ectomorph has a very, very difficult time finding any kind of information pertaining to this topic. In a world where 98% of people struggle with the exact opposite problem, life as an extreme ectomorph can be a very lonely situation indeed.

That’s why The Skinny was born.

As an extreme ectomorph I have spent a lifetime asking myself so many questions and searching for the answers. Why am I this way? Am I healthy, or should I be concerned? What other health issues might be associated with my weight? Why do people react so negatively to my build? Is it possible to put on weight, and if so, should I make an effort to do so? What is healthy and what is unhealthy in terms of gaining weight? Is being extremely skinny different for women than for men, and if so, how? How do I deal with people who insist on making me feel badly about my body? How can I feel better about my body? What is the best way to respond to (rude) comments that friends and even complete strangers apparently feel totally justified in making about my weight? What style of clothes look best on me? And once I’ve determined that, where in America do I find clothes that fit me?

These are just a few of the topics The Skinny will explore over time. You won’t find these discussions in women’s magazines, and it is only very recently (i.e., within the last 2-3 years) that I have seen any kind of forums online for extreme ectomorphs to discuss these issues frankly, and most of these are on body-building sites and are decidedly male dominated. Even so, many are valuable for the sheer feeling of identification one gets from having found others in the same boat. And while I hope to engender a culture of support for my skinny sisters and brothers through this blog, I’m not planning to moderate any forums, so an effort will be made to provide links to those that seem most helpful and insightful.

As with most blogs written by someone with a stake in the subject, this will be as much about my own self-discovery as it will be about the subject matter in general. Bear with me, my ectomorphic friends. We’re all here for the same reason. And now, to begin the journey.

Chana de Wolf
Chana de Wolf

The Skinny

Life as an extreme ectomorph